Thursday, January 31, 2008

...I Got The Blessings...

It's time for me to go to work, but I can't leave until I get this out of my system. Mama came into my dreams to give me her blessings. I know that sounds weird, but I truly believe she did. I dreamt that I was in a room with her and the family, and we were all talking to her, as she was writing down something for us. All of a sudden, people were telling me, you should tell her before she leaves. So I went up to her, and said, "Oh Mama, guess what? I'm getting married." She looked at me, and she said, "Oh good. I've been wanting you to get married. I'm so happy for you." She gave me this hug, and she looked at me with this happy smile. I have a feeling she was going to tell me more, but I woke up because I was crying so much. All my tears woke me up. I tried going back to sleep to see what else she was going to tell me, but I couldn't stop crying. Just like now, and I have to stop cause I have to go to work...I miss her so much, her and Papa. And it really hurts to know they can't be there physically. But this dream made me so happy. It's as if I really know they'll be there for me.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

God has a plan...

There is way too much of that going around me right now. Good people are having to deal with things that I would never wish upon anyone. It makes me very sad and helpless to hear about everything going on. It's the worst to know very well that there is nothing you can do but listen and lend a shoulder (or ear) to depend upon.

I'm becoming more curious about Parkinsons. Someone dear to me is having to see one of their parents go through it, and it's just getting worse as time goes on. Cancer, of course, is another that is affecting someone I love. Cancer tends to run in the family, and it sucks.

It's amazing though to hear about how they deal with things. I mean, knowing that they're living day to day, yet they're making the most out of everything. They're not just sitting at home, sulking and cursing God for doing that to them. My aunt felt like going to Monterey with my parents one day, so they drove down here from Sacramento just to go to Monterey and enjoy it. That is just really awesome to me. Sad, but amazing.

All I can do now is just pray for them and the family. It happens for a reason right? God has a plan...

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Prayer at the Gym

So here's something random, yet calming and respectful to me. I was at the gym a couple of weeks ago, and as I was suffering from side twists, I noticed that there is a guy at the corner doing stretches. All of a sudden, he stops and kneels to pray. He is literally there in the middle of the gym on his mat, just praying. Eyes closed, hands folded at the chest, somber look and everything. I thought, "wow, that is so amazing." What's even more amazing to me is that he continued to pray for what seems like a good 5 minutes. I was such a shock to me that I just stopped working out to stare. It really amazes me at how rare it is to see someone pray in public, yet it is a very calming feeling to me whenever it is seen. I really do respect that guy for doing it. I saw him again today at the gym, but I didn't get the privilege of seeing him pray. I think it wasn't time. Although he was in the exact same spot in the gym. I wonder what religion he is...

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Turkey's, Handbags & Shoes, Oh My!

So every few often, I get the joys of passing through turkey's to get into our company building. Late last week, everyone had the joy of seeing 3 large turkey's with their feathers all spread and everything. It was beautiful. On another note, I went to the mall near my house today, and I remembered that my coworker told me that Nordstroms had my handbag at the mall near work. So I decided to just see if this Nordstroms had it. did. It was the first one I saw. Once I touched it, it was over. The leather is so soft and shiny. The inside is so beautiful. Within 5 minutes, I had put the bag on the counter and paying for it. BUT, here is a pair of pretty shoes that I had purchased a few days earlier. I think I may have to return them now that I have my Hayden Bag. *WAAAAHHHH*

Thursday, January 10, 2008

It's a Handbag dahhhling...not a purse...

I'm so sleepy, yet I cannot stop thinking about my dream house (which will come years from now due to the prices right now) and my dream handbag. hehe. I have the option of getting it for about $100 less than what it's selling for. A limited edition Dooney. Now, mind you...I do not own ANY brand name bags or anything like that. I'm not big on name brands anyways. To me, as long as it's pretty, who cares? Name brand stuff are so overpriced and you get only just that...the name.

But this's gorgeous. I rarely get this crazy over something this overpriced. Haha. But, I think I will have to sacrifice itand use that $400 for a downpayment on a house. I thought about it, and sure, I'll have that bag for years and love it, but I think a house takes precedence over a handbag. So for now...I shall have to just stare at the bag.

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

How I Miss The Old Days...

I was driving home today from work, listening to my iPod on shuffle (I have no radio right now because I don't know the code to unlock it) and the song "Wildfire" by Michael Martin Murphy came on, and it completely took me back to the old days. The days when we used to go on family trips every year to Vegas, Disneyland, Concord, Monterey, etc. and just listen to the same songs on repeat. Or when we'd repeatedly sing old Filipino songs until we fell asleep in the car. Driving around in Uncle Jerry's honker of a van, laughing and eating, and listening to songs like "Wildfire" and "Footloose", country music, oldies, anything! Just going around, creating great family memories. What happened? We all grew up, went our own ways... Things are different now, and I wish they weren't sometimes. I mean, don't get me wrong...I love my life now. Everything is going great, regardless of the bad that comes up here and there. I still have my family, and I still spend time with my family and friends. (Although I really miss Mama & Papa) But I do miss those family vacations, and knowing that I really had no care in the world, and had no idea how bad this world can be. *sigh* The things that come up when you grow up...

My 3rd birthday with my fav. boys & sister. =)

Monday, January 7, 2008


As the New Year dawns on me, I've become very contemplative. (As Ira has pointed out today.) It's not a bad thing, it's just got me thinking about what I want to accomplish in 2008. I have so many that I want to accomplish, but it's like setting myself up to fail by choosing a bunch of big things that I can't even focus on.

Here is just a few of the things:
  • Buy a condo/townhouse
  • Deal with the change in my income after buying the place. hehe.
  • Go to the gym more. Ex: Take Yoga class (Who wants to join me?)
  • Read the Bible
  • Drink more water. (Yes...I don't like water)
  • Eat healthier
  • Move up in work
  • Decide what it is exactly that I want to do for a living, where I see myself in the future...
So you see...these are doable resolutions, it's just that I cannot fully concentrate on achieving these goals if I have so many large ones. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to make any of these easier to accomplish? *sigh* The pain and suffering of growing up...

Happy New Year everyone. I hope to see everyone in 2008 and may 2008 be everything you hope for.